WHEN I WAKE UP AND GO TO SLEEP
I wake up and see your face,
It is held within my chest,
Somewhere else you might be screened,
I wake up with you, with me.
I stretch, and lose you again,
I try to remember my deepest dream,
But it is gone you left with it,
How am I supposed to find you here?
You are gone you disappeared,
Vanished your shadow is.
Thoughts of you might haunt me now,
But still you're not right here with me.
I live my day and I do fine,
But I come back to the same place.
I am right here in my own dream,
In which I live my pointless life.
And the bed's my only escape,
Because it's safe and far away;
I feel protected, I feel secure,
'Cuz I can be with you again.
When I wake up and go to sleep
You come back with me you sit,
I try to hold you and make you stay,
But you just leave like everyday.
I have you just here, with me...
Got your picture and sleep with it,
Dream about you back kissing me,
Wake up alone, without relief.
And I cry, and fall sleep,
With your photo held against me.
Then I wake up and I just feel
Seas of tears flowing down stream.
A sense of numbness invades my chest,
A feeling of rage emerges there.
I am alone. I want to rest.
I feel like falling once again.
Ruthless dreams stick to my heart,
While memories kill my essence;
Yet I still need you, my loveless pain:
Don't make me look for your presence.
In dreamless nights I lay awake,
And in the wind I hear your name,
It slightly whispers a callous shriek,
That makes me jump out of my bed.
It is the voice of misery,
I've gone cold,
Where have you been?
All I know is that you were not here.
But the sound of my silence,
Makes the fright leave my room,
Makes the pain relieve some more.
And I'm left with me and with you.
I lie down, and go to sleep,
I dream about you, finally;
But I wake up and feel the tears,
Once again, flowing downstream.
When I wake up and go to sleep,
Your image comes, and disappears.
It always does when I'm asleep,
It comes and goes with memories.
I have you here, inside my heart,
Locked up within my soul,
But every night you just depart,
Might it be my hollow zone?
When I wake up and go to sleep,
You sit right here, right next to me.
Then you escape, unleashed beast,
Don't hurt me more, please stay here.
Just hold me tight, and never leave,
Give me a kiss, and make me dream
'Cause then you'll go, but you'll be here,
When I wake up and go to sleep.
Everardo Acosta
Holtville, CA