How could you?
How could you
deceive me and use me that way? Or more like, how was I fool enough to not see
what you were up to and actually fall for you?
You made me think
that you actually cared about me, even if it was just a little.
I thought you would
treat me good like the others did. Turned out all that was bullshit and one big
lie.
You fucker.
I’m sorry to say
that I trusted you enough to give you part of me. I honestly have never regretted
anything more than you.
You managed to do a
great job at making me feel dirty, gross, used and just like shit.
You hurt me, not so
much because I cared about you, but because you used my body and spirit and
when you were done, you just sort of threw me all away.
Nobody had done
that before and when that happened, I got a feeling inside that I never thought
I would have for you.
Anger and total
loss of respect.
But I am happy to
say that you are my past and now when I see you, I have no feelings for you.
Sad to say, but
hardly even as a friend anymore.
But, at least the
next person will be much more worthy of me than you will ever be.
I’ll make sure of
that.
You were my mistake
I made and I will make sure to never make that mistake again.
I send you no bad
feelings or ill wishes and I hope one day you find someone special who you see
for all they are and you treat them good.
But, in the
meantime, do me a favor. Don't ever try to pull the same shit you pulled this
time. Just let me live my life and I’ll let you live yours.
The only thing I
hope, and I’m pretty sure you don't, is that you feel bad for using me. 'cause
that shit hurts.
Rushie D
Eugene, OR